Dancing in the Rain…

dancing-in-the-rainRain… teardrops of the sky on the glass window…I’m coming back to the Big City… The mood is awful… or I should say, there is no mood at all… Nothing… Frustration and Kenny G’s music in the earphones. Interesting combination, not more… I stop looking at the window and at the rain behind it and cozy and warm feeling starts to fill me… I close my eyes, enjoying the moment, and then “boom” and the moment’s gone…

I have to go out into the rain and get home. Billions millions of cars, tons of people and rain, which doesn’t stop. Usually, I love rain. Love walking down the streets without an umbrella and enjoy every drop of this mighty of nature, but today everything’s different. Today, rain irritates me and I hate it, every second of it, every drop of it… I finally made it to the house, or co-called home, but don’t have the comfortable feeling that I usually do when I get Home, maybe because it never became that dear place to my heart… But it is home, and it is the fact. I take a cup of tea, come to the window and stare outside. This is new habit that I inhaled since start living in the Big City. One of not many moments of privacy you get living in the world of constant movement. I see the picture that fascinates me: a boy and a girl walking together under huge, bright yellow umbrella. Dazzling spot in the moment of despair. They walking very close to each other, the boy looks at the girl with deep concern on his face, but she doesn’t see it; the girl thinks about something very hard and… suddenly, she walks out from under the umbrella! She looks up at the sky, big rain drops crashing her face and she starts laughing… The moment of confusion on the boy’s face and “boom”—the realization comes!!!! He closes the umbrella and looks at her with absolute adoration and enjoyment on his face… Dancing in the rain…

Cold cup of tea in cold hands and huge smile on the face… Big City, thank you… Thank you for showing me at the right time and in the right place the beauty of life. Just only one sad thought spoil the moment: it has been so long since I danced in the rain…

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That’s what friends are for…

That is for you, my very beautiful and wonderful best friend!!! Girl, everything’s going to be great, believe me!!!

 

 

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Для тебя…

Знаешь, а вчера опять был дождь… Когда такое происходит, я всегда думаю о тебе. Может, потому что дождь проходит так же неожиданно, как и ты, а может, потому что он такой же непредсказуемый, как и ты… Нет, скорее всего, потому что он такой же серый и угрюмый, как и ты в последнее время.

Сейчас я осознаю, что перестала тебя понимать очень давно. Я перестала понимать, а главное , принимать твои поступки, перестала искать для тебя оправдания… Все больше и больше вопросов стало появляться, на которые просто нет, и никогда не будет, ответов. Но тем не менее, я ещё здесь, я рядышком… Хотя знаешь, я всегда буду рядом с тобой, может, не физически, но морально я точно рядом. Я всего лишь на расстоянии вытянутой руки, а расстоянии телефонного звонка, на расстоянии простого диалога глаз. Просто хочу тебе лишний раз об этом напомнить…

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Take a look at yourself in the mirror. Who do you see looking back? Is it the person you want to be? Or is there someone else you meant to be, the person you should have been but felt short. Or someone telling you can’t or you won’t, because you can. Believe that love is out there. Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do!!!! Sometime, happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power, sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and from the quite nobility of living a good life. Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do.  Believe that dreams come true, because they do. So, take a look at that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be, believe that! And believe that dreams come true every day, because they do!”

                                                                                                   — One Tree Hill

Dreams come true. I believe that.

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In another life…

…”I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you’d make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders…”

People come and go… They come into your live without asking,turn and twist your life around, make your existence without them impossible, and then disappear…

“I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory…”

And you are getting used to live without them. It’s hard, it’s taugh, it’s almost imposible, but you manage to do it… And right about the time you are almost gettign over it, they come back… And it’s like lightenign strives you, all memories and thoughts are right here…

“You know I love you, I really do
But I can’t fight anymore for you
And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life…”

Maybe, in another life, where everything is easier and not that complicated, everything is possible… but not here.

“I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I’m sorry I can’t be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can’t fight anymore for you
And I don’t know, maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)…”

                              “The Veronicas– “In Another Life””

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Best Friends Forever?

Friend… six letters that create the word which is so nice and warm, so full of peace and grace, so charming and cozy…

Well, it’s been a month since I saw you or talked to you the last time… The whole month without a single word or quick chat. You know, for all those years that we’ve been friends it is for the first time and I guess the last one…

I still remember the day when we met: it was nice summer day, tons of green leaves that were playing with the sun strings… I was just doing my first independent steps in life, of course with the backup of my mom, but I was way too busy to look at her, because I was heading to my favorite playground. And suddenly I stopped and couldn’t believe my eyes: I saw a stranger there! There was a little girl sitting on the bench and holding a doll… And since I was the only girl in our apartment building it was strange to see another one there too. Till this day I can not understand why but I came up to her and looked at her face very attentively, she looked at me back and handed me the doll… It was the first day of our friendship and that doll was like the symbol of it…

 Tons of times I heard that we are too different and don’t have anything in common, but I was blind and stubborn to admit it, saying that differences attract to each other! 

But I was wrong. You used to tell me that people don’t change, but this time you are wrong… We changed; both of us just grew up and it is, of course, normal but somewhere along that we lost the interest in each other, that sister-like connection that we used to have and which nobody could explain…

You know what, I’m just tired of holding for something that only I need, I’m exhausted of rooting for this friendship that no one else seem to care about, maybe it is tough but it is the way it is! And nothing of this came from out of blue: I closed my eyes on some things, I let some stuff go and so did you… But not this time! I can’t forgive you a lie, never could… no, not like that, of course I can forgive you a lie, but I will never forget that. That’s just who I am. I’m emotional, stubborn, say things exactly how they are even if that’s unpleasant, and I can’t let go the betrayal; that’s the way I am, and if I will have to change anything of that it won’t be me anymore… I’m sorry…

A friend for me is a person that I can rely on, who will stand by my side no matter what, who I can talk to in any time of the day or night, the one who understands me perfectly, the one who will listen to me and won’t judge. You were that person for me, but not anymore. Very often we are placed at the situations where we have to make choices, it is hard, no doubt about that, but to make the right choice is the hardest decision in life. You, my Friend, I hope you don’t mind me calling you that for the last time, made you choice. Was it right? I’m not the one to judge, but one thing is clear: at one point somewhere at the Universe our live lines crossed, and after that they just went parallel but very close to each other. And now, they are moving away, they are separating from each other…

Two month ago you told me that the doll was missing… One day the friends of you parents came over to  your place. There was a little girl with them… She saw that doll and asked if she can have it? The doll was given away. When you told me that story I didn’t pay attention on it, but I guess it is just the destiny, fate, fortune, call it whatever you want, but it’s kind of symbolic, don’t you think?

Well, it is the time for me to let go… I’m not angry with you or mad at you, I’m just accepting the situation as it is, and making my own conclusions. I wish you to be happy and never regret the choice you made. I used to believe that friendship last forever, but I suppose, not every friendship can survive that “forever”…

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Invictus

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